Excuse me, are you a nanny?
Yes, yes, I am a nanny. To? My beloved cells. My Chinese hamster ovary cells. Taking care of them. Tender loving care. Here, let me change your culture media so that you have a better environment with fresh yummy nutrients. That was I spent my Saturday. Later in the afternoon, I went to get a haircut. Was walking around, looking for a good place. Went into this place called cut n curl.
The moment I stepped into the hair salon, a “lady’ looked up. I really thought was a lady cos very thin and wearing sleeveless and the hair a bit long. Then, the “lady” opened mouth and said, “What do you want?” Very manly voice. I was shocked. I took awhile to regain my composure and replied that I need a haircut. He asked, “Professional or student?” You see, this place actually trains student hairstylists so they will be cheaper. I chose professional. He said professional would have to wait. So I wanted to leave. I din wanna wait. Immediately he said that he would cut for me. Wah, so good. Dun wanna wait means can cut earlier??!! Anyway, the place was really packed. Each hairstylist attending to a customer. They even have a royalty card. Ten stamps can get 10 bucks off. Haha mabbe can consider going back.
First pay day
Yay!!! It’s pay day. First pay day. So exciting. I haven been out lately. Decided to pop by Jurong Point after work. Used to be my favourite haunt. Always go there on bus 198 after school. Those were the good old days. Now working, no energy too. Free time’s spent resting at home and just lazing around.
Back at the office, was counting the hours till the end of work. Friday’s off time is 1730. Earlier by half an hour. So here I was, the gal with her pay, happily looking for something to buy. The first thing I bought was a cardigan from Giordano. It’s pink. My favourite colour. Actually it was an impulse buy. I just wanted to buy something for myself. Then, I walked around the whole shopping complex, desperately searching for something to buy. Quite disappointing. I din buy much. =( Bought another top from Baleno. That’s the end of my supposed shopping spree. In case you dunno, baleno’s selling tops at 7 bucks each and bottoms at 15 each. Go pick out a good buy.
dumb or wat?
This is like the nth time that I am feeling dumb since I started work. Getting deflated. When I first started, the terminology was totally foreign to me. But I overcame that by reading up. It’s ok it’s alright, try try try. That’s what I keep on telling myself.
Something happened today and made me upset. It’s all the stupid computer’s fault. My sup told me to observe how the others operate and then do accordingly. I observed. But the clicking of the computer icons was too fast. So in the end I only had a rough idea. Later, he came back and told me to do the sampling. I tried and I got stuck. He was irritated and said, “Observe means you are supposed to learn how to do it.” Oh well, he was slightly ill and mabbe multitasking (teaching another student) so he a bit kan cheong. I was speechless cos in my mind, dunno better say dunno. Not anyhow do and spoil the thing. I am not a computer expert. He thought that by showing me ie clickin on the screen while I looked and I would know. Maybe I am dumb. Like I say earlier, this is the nth time I asked myself this question: am I dumb or what?? I need more than looking. I need the written steps like those available in computer classes: first u click file, then u choose new etc. So later, he admitted he sounded harsh just now. I just said that it’s ok lor but I need written instructions. Yup wanna put this incident behind me.
hot tempered
It takes so little to get my blood boiling. I admit I am hot-tempered. It’s worse when I feel wronged. My ma was insisting I said something before but I denied it. That was when things just escalated into a full blown shouting match.
I can’t keep my cool in a quarrel. I just love to shout louder. But I have learnt to control a bit before letting those hurtful remarks out of my mouth. Control control. Calm down. Don’t say things you will regret later. I’m still trying to do so.
Communication is most important. Without understanding, we cannot learn to trust one another. Guessing someone’s intentions is not very right too. We might be jumping to conclusions at times. So the best is to be truthful. Or one may come across as fake? Was talking to a friend the other day about fakeness in a friend. Think we may not know how exactly the other party feels about a certain issue, that’s why we keep our thoughts to ourselves? We dun mean to deceive? It’s just that we dun say it out loud?
Passion necessary?
My eyesight still did not improve. I went back to the clinic and the clinic assistant put some eye drops to constrict the eyes back. Will take a few hours to work. Still waiting. Blurry vision for now. Wanna share with you all something someone said today about doing something one likes. I always think that to be happy, one must find the ideal job that he/she likes. Then he/she will devote the time and effort on it. A job will not be a chore in this case. However, this friend said that in life it is not very possible to find this job. You will have to try so many jobs before you find one that you have the passion for. He then cited an analogy about love. We all think that there is this perfect other half waiting for us. But in reality, is it possible to find him/her? Are you goin to spend your entire life searching? It’s just not possible. So at the end of the day, you will settle with someone who likes you and you do like him/her a bit. For a job, it’s just the same. Find one you can bear with and you wont mind spending your life working.
vision is poor
My eyesight has not improved. Very scared. The doctor said the next day. I thought would be morning. So I went to work with blurry eyes. I was thinking to myself why I was afraid of the light. I did a quick search on the net and found out that photophobia was one of the side effects. And the effect may last up to 24 hours. Ok, I decided to wait for another day.
eye doc=ophthalmologist
Finally seen the eye doctor after delaying it for so long.
I plucked up my courage and walked into the clinic. It says open from 7 to 9pm.
There were three clinic assistants behind the counter. (so many leh I thought to myself). I took a look at the price chart-60 bucks for first consultation. Oh well, might as well c the doctor and I don’t have to worry further.
One of the clinic assistants did an eye examination for me. Then she said that the doc was not there yet. Only be around at 7.30pm. Eh then why the sign says open from 7 to 9pm? Why make the patients wait? Ok never mind. I took a walk around the market and came back.
The doctor told me that my eyeball should not elongate further at this age (old liao!!) and the degree should have stabilized. What I perceived as worsening eyesight is that I have been strainin my eye muscles. I should learn to relax them. He said its hard to do that cos we ourselves do not even know we are straining our eyes.
After that, he mentioned to measure my real shortsightedness. So the clinic assistant put some eyedrops into my eyes and the medicine is supposed to dilate the eyes. For the pharmacist, the drug is mydriacyl containin tropicamide. My real degree is 25 and 400!!! Such a world of difference!! The doc said its fine. Not very serious. Just learn to relax the eye muscles. There are people who choose to not wear glasses and rely on monovision. Cos sth to do with the good eye and the bad eye see slightly diff things and some pple do not feel comfortable. I should always undercorrect my eyesight though. He said if I adjust to 400 my eyesight will deteriorate. This part I dun really get it……
Anyway the eye drops made my vision blur and I could not see things which are near. The doc said that my vision will be back by tomolo….
Stomach problems
Dunno wat's wrong with my stomach. First, its the LS day now it's bloating. Think my stomach is twice its original size. And it hurts with all the wind inside. This is more painful than LS. Totally miserable that I cannot think straight. Mabbe I have IBS? I have suspected that for sometime. Now I really wanna LS to relieve the wind. But cannot. Argh. Rub ru yi you still no effect....Have to bear with it for now.
My eyes hurt
I think my eye sight has seriously deteriorated cos i have been having a love affair with the computer. I face it so many hours a day, caressing the keys and communicating with it. My degree is 0 in one eye and 350 in the other. Goodness. I dunno wat to do. I wanna save my eye. Save sunkissfish's eye campaign. Will see an eye doctor (too cheem dun wanna embarrass myself by attemptin to spell it) soon.
Diarrhea
The noodles were not very clean leh. Got diarrhea after eating them. And there I was commenting at the coffeeshop that the noodles were springy and nicer than another stall's. What was I thinking? The diarrhea was quite bad. Stomach was churning away and I kept rushing to the toilet at my workplace. Later, I found out my colleague oso kena diarrhea. I concluded that the food was not clean lor. But hey my GIT in good order. Help me flush out the dirt. Thank you...
commencement
Yup we have officially graduated. A working adult contributing to Singapore's economy. The ceremony was a bit troublesome in a way cos i had to buy new long sleeve white shirt, black pants and shoes. And i wont wear them often. Menu wanted to meet early to take fotos and she was late. At the last min, she got a new haircut and a new dye job. Goodness. But she looked nice. I wanna dye too. With my first pay perphaps.
Of course, jam did us pharmers proud by being the valedictorian. COngrats. Great speech too. We clapped loudly for you. :)
The highlight of the event was the photo taking. Got to take fotos with all my classmates though we looked silly but supposedly wiser in our square hats. Will post the fotos soon. Stay tune.
Am i a computer idiot?
First u switch on these buttons here n there. Then u press this button. Now u click on the menu. Select this an that......
Huh???!!! That was my reaction when my sup was explaining to me the operation of the machine. Gosh, I must be real dumb. There is no written instructions and i truly cant comprehend on the spot. How?? I am not so good with machines. Will take time to cultivate a loving relationship with them.
Missing neurons
I cant control my fingers well. Press down and release the solution into the microplate. Argh. Overshot. My fingers are shivering. Oh no, am I missing some neurons? My hands just wont cooperate. Must practise more. Practice makes perfect. But my hands have been with me for so many years liao....Oh behave!
Overwhelmed......but not defeated
Gosh i am so lost. Thrown into a totally different field. Trying hard to comprehend the terrain. Still trying to get my directions right. I speak a different lingual. Need to be able to speak biotechish.
The programme has been inverted. Starting with project instead of attending lectures first. So how did i choose my project? Chose something I have at least heard of. That involves pcr and elisa. Though I have not tried them before. Hopefully i can survive in the jungle.
I am so full......
Today is really a eat-all-you can day.
First i started out with a japanese buffet at kushin bo, located at suntec. Celebrated ZY's birthday in advance. Happie birthday to you, happie birthday to you, happie birthday to ZY, happie birthday to you. *claps*
Since it's a buffet, must eat a lot to make it money worth right? So i just kept stuffin myself. What did i eat? Lemme see. Ten plus slices of sashimi (salmon, maguro n some fish), taki tori, chicken balls, tempura yasai, ebi, unagi, baby octopus, bamboo shoots, shishamo, matcha ice-cream, pastries (very delicious. cheesecake, red bean muah chee, konnyaku jelly etc).
Then i had a filling dinner. My ma always cooks alot for dinner cos she thinks we do not eat much for lunch. After that, even had durians. Goodness. Plus watermelon too. Stomach so packed....
